No. 05/ 190406

Dear superhero,

"Tragedies happen when your heart breaks you gotta fight like hell to stay alive, because you are. The pain you feel - thats life. The confusion and fear - that's there to remind you that somewhere out there, there's something better...something that's worth fighting for." - Nathan

I know you've tried so hard, yet time and again you've been let down, and it hurts to think that you've tried so hard but it's all amounted to nothing in your eyes. You just keep trying and trying so hard that it hurts to think of anything that could go right, just for once, just to have that feeling that you've done something right in your life, but it hurts all the more when it seems as though that's too much to ask from you. But don't you ever be blind to what good you've done! Don't ever think that your life has been a waste; just ask anyone around you what good you've done in their lives, and then you'll start to see what you've been doing all these years. It's never amounted to nothing. You may find that you're living in darkness, but that's only because you've been giving all your light to others and to the things you choose to pursue, and you've forgotten to shine some of your light onto yourself and see the beauty of you.

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, when ever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." - James 1:2-4

Why me?
Yes, it's you because YOU are the SPECIAL one, and HE has a FLAWLESS PLAN for YOU. Nothing happened by accident, neither is He picking on you. I believe that you were meant to go through this. everyone goes through a crisis at one point of time in their lives, when everything is lost, and the only thing you need to do is leave it to Him to carry out his master plan. It's hard to entrust everything to Him, it's difficult to listen and understand and know what he wants for you, it's hard to even acknowledge that He was there with you throughout your suffering and that He will be faithful and stay with you THROUGHOUT, no matter how hard you try to push Him away. "The Lord is full of compassion and mercy"-James 5:11 But our God is a merciful, a gracious, a compassionate, a loving, an understanding God, and i believe that He will NEVER, EVER let you fall. He will NEVER let you lose everything. He will bring you something good into your life, He will make things go right for you, He will give you MUCH MORE than what you ask for, but all you need to do is invite Him back into your life and let Him know that you fully trust in Him to answer your prayers.

Where do I go now?
Don't dwell on what's gone wrong; look towards what you can do right with your life. It's not over, it's not the end; it's just the beginning of your legacy and you musn't give up halfway through your battle; through your fight to be 'nobody but yourself'. Nobody can make the choice yourself, no matter how much you hate to make that decision. But nothing's guaranteed, nothing's for sure, nothing's free of regret; you just have to learn to live with your decision without hating yourself.
But let me tell you something: what you're in now is a win-win situation. The prospect of death may seem frightening and lonely, but what does God say about dying? Do not be afraid of death! Heaven is your eternal home, not earth, and Heaven is a wonderful place to be in! Free of the worries of life, the struggles, the pain, the stress...it's a place of love and rejoicing! Go forth bravely and do not fear death; be strong and courageous and BELIEVE in YOURSELF!

I don't know who to listen to...
No one can tell you what you should do, and everyone has different perceptions of what is best for you, but i'm hoping that you will have the mental strength to pull through your decision. It's no point doing what every one wants you to do to make them happy; YOU must have the conviction to carry through with your decision, and YOU must know that you are fighting for your decision, and have the trust that YOU WILL NOT GIVE IN EASILY. At this point in time, i hope and pray that you will have the mental, emotional, and physical strength to pull through, and i believe with all my heart that you have the strength to pull through ANYTHING.

Keep the faith and the fighting spirit burning, superhero!
LOVE, DEBBIE + DORA!