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yes yes i've moved my blog. congratulations! you've found it. after i deleted my previousone because i realised friendster had sent out an email broadcasting my newlycreated blog. :/

damn pissed with my mum today. what the hell does she know about building relationships? every time she just keeps drilling into my head, 'don't waste your time going out with your friends', i feel like smacking her. i mean, dude, how long do i have to spend time with them? once i leave rg, i'll go into rj, they'll probably hook up with their boys and i'll be left with my darling dora and gracia. and zeslene? yvonne? marissa? kat? poo? they've been great people to hang out with.i really thank God for placing these people in my life..zes and her strange ways, yvonne and her taitai aspirations, marissa and her violent tendencies, kat and her eating sprees and writing letters, vanessa and her constant eyebags...i don't know what we'll become in the future. what they'll become in time to come. worst thing is, marissa's like leaving. that's probably one of the worst things that could happen to me. i mean, i barely have any true friends whom i know won't change, and she's one of them. she's been my pillar of support - i know she'll always be there for me..i owe her big time for all the enjoyment and fun i've had these past 4 years.

what's more with mummy. she says she wants to avoid having friends outside rgs - look at convention. how often am i allowed to form healthy relationships with people from outside school? as in healthy dude. look at me in church. she's always telling me, don't make friends with who and who, cos they're not good influences and you'll be wasting time and blah blah blah. please. i'll be the good influence.."i'm a good girl, i am!" by the time she's done, the only people i'm left with are some. 2D characters that i dont like. :/ BAH. and i've been wanting to join church worship for so long...as in..i've thought about it since p6. it's probably the only opportunity i have to establish an existence for myself in church..and most importantly i think it's about time for me to give back to Him what He has so graciously blessed me with..i want to make my talent a GIFT! to Him. but GUESS WHAT? she'll probably come up with some excuse to not let me join. i don't know. i hope i'm lucky. perhaps she'll understand that IT'S NOT A WASTE OF TIME. seems like any time i spend with people is considered a 'waste of time'..yesyes. studies are more important. hello! there are tons of people out there who're geniuses, but how much do they know about humans?people?those living things that you brush past every morning without even bothering about who they could be? why they look the way they do? why do they look sad? can i help?

dude. if i don't join worship, i have SERIOUS considerations about changing church. i don't know. i feel really out of place in my church...as in. awkward. no one really bothers. except dawn and joelynn. ><

ahwell. that feels much better. thankyou zeslene for this wonderful idea of typing my thoughts in word first so mummy wont suspect anything. you rock dude. even though you're kind of strange.. :/

but then again, after you read this post, please understand this:

i DO love mummy.

just that she gets rather annoying sometimes.
and my math pt awaits. so does my piano. so does my HSSRP. so does my lit pt. and my english pt. and my book day homework. and my chinese homework X)

my life rocks, dudes.