Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Keep a straight face
And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I'm
Content with loneliness
Because none of it was ever worth the risk
love the lyrics. (:
Monday, January 31, 2011
Thursday, January 20, 2011
guarded
call me skeptical, but when people ask how I'm doing, I can't help but wonder if they really care or if they're more interested in judging me.
what a world.
what a world.
Monday, January 03, 2011
(d/m)isplaced
I miss London ): It's lonely being here.
Sometimes I wonder where I've been
Who I am, do I fit in?
Make-believing is hard alone
Out here, on my own
Sometimes I wonder where I've been
Who I am, do I fit in?
Make-believing is hard alone
Out here, on my own
Saturday, January 01, 2011
work in progress
It is both amazing and unbelievable how time flies. A year ago I wouldn't have dreamt of finding myself where I am today. I wouldn't have imagined an overseas education, a scholarship, a newfound passion for clinical science, a new life in London. I was totally clueless what lay in store - no clue of IB results, unsure of what course I wanted to pursue, and having no opinion about whether to study overseas or not. It simply amazes how far these 365 days have taken me since then. And it scares me to think where the next 365 days will take me. What kind of person will I be? What would I have encountered? Who would I have met? But if there's one thing that this year has taught me, it's that God is completely in control of my life. Every minute detail to people, place, and timing. It's all so perfect, in retrospect; His hand in everything that has happened to me is unmistakable. And knowing that the year ahead will once again be planned out by him, is so comforting and encouraging. (:
2010 has been a year of life-changing moments and eye-opening experiences. Got my IB results, applied to universities, flew up to London for interviews, applied to scholarships, interned in hospitals, didn't get the scholarship I wanted, interned in A*STAR, decided what I wanted to pursue, got accepted to NUS med, appealed and got the scholarship I wanted, taught in ac, flew to London and survived a term of med sch, camped at the airport, flew back. So many decisions made, challenges faced, lessons learnt. So many times of being forced out of my emotional, mental, and physical comfort zone. It hasn't been an easy year, but I'm grateful for all that has happened to mould me into the person I am today; the person I'm entering 2011 as.
At the dinner table yesterday, my dad commented that I'm probably the person with the longest list of things to thank God for. Which is why attempting to talk about every single thing would be too intense. So I'll just talk about just one.
As cheesy as it sounds, I'm thankful for good friends, and my parents. I'm thankful for the friends that have lasted, the friends who have kept in contact and bothered to find out how I'm doing, the new friends I've made, the friends I've come close to losing. Going overseas and finding myself in a place where no one knows who I am and not everyone cares to find out, and having come back now in search of people who've missed me has led me to realise how hard it is to come by friends who actually stick by you - albeit time, distance, and events. So to the friends who have, thank you. I'm incredibly blessed to have you. (:
Coming back home has also made me realise how much my parents have missed me. Especially my mom - she's just so happy to have me in the house, I'm being showered with so much love here. And it breaks my heart to know that I don't always return that love.
So that brings me to my resolutions for the new year - to be a better friend (i.e. to stay in contact more, not dao emails and msges, be proactive in catching up w people and showing care, show appreciation more, pray for my friends, be more loving in word and deed, and not take their love for granted), and a better daughter (i.e. no more sian faces over skype, no more impatience, more thoughtfulness towards their concerns, no more shouting, more praying for them, and taking care of myself so they won't worry unnecessarily). Being the practical person that studying overseas has turned me into, I figured trying to keep to these 2 might be hard enough so there's no point making a whole long list of resolutions. Heh.
So bring it, 2011, with all your challenges and experiences in store for me. I'm ready for you. (:
2010 has been a year of life-changing moments and eye-opening experiences. Got my IB results, applied to universities, flew up to London for interviews, applied to scholarships, interned in hospitals, didn't get the scholarship I wanted, interned in A*STAR, decided what I wanted to pursue, got accepted to NUS med, appealed and got the scholarship I wanted, taught in ac, flew to London and survived a term of med sch, camped at the airport, flew back. So many decisions made, challenges faced, lessons learnt. So many times of being forced out of my emotional, mental, and physical comfort zone. It hasn't been an easy year, but I'm grateful for all that has happened to mould me into the person I am today; the person I'm entering 2011 as.
At the dinner table yesterday, my dad commented that I'm probably the person with the longest list of things to thank God for. Which is why attempting to talk about every single thing would be too intense. So I'll just talk about just one.
As cheesy as it sounds, I'm thankful for good friends, and my parents. I'm thankful for the friends that have lasted, the friends who have kept in contact and bothered to find out how I'm doing, the new friends I've made, the friends I've come close to losing. Going overseas and finding myself in a place where no one knows who I am and not everyone cares to find out, and having come back now in search of people who've missed me has led me to realise how hard it is to come by friends who actually stick by you - albeit time, distance, and events. So to the friends who have, thank you. I'm incredibly blessed to have you. (:
Coming back home has also made me realise how much my parents have missed me. Especially my mom - she's just so happy to have me in the house, I'm being showered with so much love here. And it breaks my heart to know that I don't always return that love.
So that brings me to my resolutions for the new year - to be a better friend (i.e. to stay in contact more, not dao emails and msges, be proactive in catching up w people and showing care, show appreciation more, pray for my friends, be more loving in word and deed, and not take their love for granted), and a better daughter (i.e. no more sian faces over skype, no more impatience, more thoughtfulness towards their concerns, no more shouting, more praying for them, and taking care of myself so they won't worry unnecessarily). Being the practical person that studying overseas has turned me into, I figured trying to keep to these 2 might be hard enough so there's no point making a whole long list of resolutions. Heh.
So bring it, 2011, with all your challenges and experiences in store for me. I'm ready for you. (:
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