what

does it matter does it matter does it matter does it matter!!! sigh.

Nghhhh I really think a lack of thinking is causing my brain to degenerate. Most of the time my mind is blank. Either that, or phrases pop into my mind and repeat themselves over and over again and make me tear up for no good reason.

Lack of thinking = loss of reason = heightened emotions = ...very emotional female?

Haha ahhh well. Things to settle! Date the girls, get a new phone & a new phone plan, decide on my life plan, exercise, prepare for my grandma's birthday item, read watch tv read read...

Mug for university? That might work.

through emerald courts and sapphire skies

It's only hit me of late how amazing God's been to me, and how the last thing I should be doing is feeling upset with myself or life.

But because it's late, my legs hurt from all the walking (sorry not army-trained), and my eyes are closing, thisss is gonna be short!

Thank God for helping my friends through their medicine interviews especially clement&jlee good job you guys!! Hearing you two share really encouraged me (: even though my interviews of late haven't been that great, but yup I guess God has his sovereign plan for each and every one of us! Thank God also for opening AND closing doors, and guiding me to make my decision. Also for my scholarship which I must never never take for granted, and my SGH doctor who is actually getting nicer and slacker! & for you (: for being the amazing amazing irreplaceable person that you are.

<3

nomnomnom part II

It is 1.20 am and I'm up editing a TOK presentation. I think my brain hasn't felt so happy in a long time (:

Today's essay test was quite fun too! I realised how much I missed planning an essay and scribbling words furiously down to the last second. Exams are so exciting! I miss them (:

I guess I really am a mugger after all. Hee. (:

i wish it were all clearer.

too afraid to make a mistake...
and far too unwilling to leave.

more than ever

..<3 (:

the most annoying thing

about interviews, is that the parts that you answered well don't really impact the interviewers as much as the parts where you got owned by them. Get owned for not knowing about one issue, and the interviewer goes away thinking you're poorly read.

):

The second most annoying thing about interviews (actually this kindof on par with the first), is when you know you could have answered a simple question perfectly well but somehow, at that one point in time, THE ANSWER EVADES YOUR FEAR-STRICKEN BRAIN!!! The feeling when you walk out of the interview wondering why you failed to engage the interviewer in an intellectual discussion about something you had clearly spent time reading up about and formulating your stand on and actually had a chance at bringing up during the interview is terrible. You feel..low down and ornery ): Like a certain white boy on a raft.

The third most annoying thing is when you prepare for AMD HOTA PAS EUTHANASIA AVIAN INFLUENZA HFMD HIV DIABETES DENGUE H1N1 GENETIC TESTING 3MS BARACKOBAMA'SHEALTHCAREREFORMS NHS and none of it comes out during your interview but everyone else gets asked about it!!!!

Finally, the fouth most annoying thing is when interviewers ask you a question, then look down at their lap and subsequently proceed to frown at their laps while you're talking.


Apart from all that, I'm happy to say the NUS interviews went fine. (:

Thanks to all the people who smsed me!! Your smses were much appreciated(: Sorry if I didn't reply though! Promise I'll start replying people once my phone plan gets upgraded on 26 April. Hopefully with a new phone ^^