equation from yesterday:

lots of work + lousy weather + bad timing
= late nights + no tennis for 2 weeks + no running
= increased intake of late night snacks + no exercise
= very fat.

and people ponning lessons to mug at home is damnn annoying. seriously. and are the teachers fools or what. ughh.

okay very tempted to rant about how tired i am with handling the work and how i am in a state of disbelief as to how i haven't started preparing for end of years.

but i shall do the sensible thing and just finish up the stoobid bio ia and get on to tok. zee mandatory dealth penalty(: funfunfun. :D

i've been meaning to put this on my blog since forever ever since i saw it like, one year ago.
so here goes.

have fun. (:

my eyes are super dry. my contacts are sticky and my rigid lenses rewetting drops are running out. and I AM NOT DONE WITH CHEM IA ughhh. my productivity sucks nowadays, seriously.
i'm think i'm gonna be crazy and go for a run at 6.30 am. then come back and sleep till 10. then, assuming i've finished bio and chem ia by 6.30 am, at 10 i will do bio worksheets and mug bio. even though i'd much rather start on chem, but since bio has a friggin' lot of chapters for eoys i have a feeling i should start soon. so i'll mug bio (ecology and genetics) till 2pm. then i'll be a good girl and mug econs till 5pm. then i'll revise math. then i'll look around for an econs ia article. then i'll stop here since i bet i'm not going to do any of the above anyway.

sigh.
i like the across the universe soundtrack (:

HE WILL CARRY YOUUUU (:

IF HE CARRIED THE WEIGHT OF THE WORLD
UPON HIS SHOULDERS
I KNOW MY SISTER THAT HE WILL CARRY YOUUUUUU!

homework for the weekend + holiday:
somewhat in order of date due,
1. Bio IA (assessed) D;
2. Chem IA
3. Dig out rg's COI stuff for TOK facilitator shizz on monday
4. Bio worksheets 6 of 'em
5. 100 bio oly mcq questions + revise for bio oly so i get at least 10/100.
6. Study for econs test
7. Study for math test (i.e. restudy vectors matrices complex numbers and differentiation)
8. TOK individual presentation
9. Econs IA
10. Chem file for venthan.


"For we have not a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are, yet without sinning. Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need." - Hebrews 4:15-16
I CAN COPE WITH LIFE. (: because it is in His presence that i can receive mercy to cover the sins of yesterday, and find grace to meet the needs of today.

MY GOD IS SO MIGHTY. I HAVE A MIGHTY GOD. I CAN DO IT ! GO GO GO DARB! :D

AHHH I UPLOADED THE SAME VIDEO TWICE. ughhhhh.
darnit facebook load faster luhhh.
):
my laptop has been on since afternoon try to feel a little sympathy for it?

and i just realised there are blood vessels popping out of both my hands. which is both ugly but quite cool. haha.

list of to-dos by this week:
1. chem ws on kinetics
2. pages 107-109 of chem book + study kinetics all over again because not knowing what the arrhenius equation is is making me wonder whether i really understand kinetics.
3. decide whether to finish doing chem book questions or a level tys, then do it.
4. math differentiation worksheet
5. mug clock reaction since thursday's prac is gonna be on that.
6-8. 3 english commentaries. the english department need not be surprised if no english teacher gets any teacher's day present. 4 english commentaries at one go! yeah, like we churn out english commentaries in our free time effortlessly.

roarrr getting started on work after foa is hard. ): reality is crappy. well, for now it is. ):

before i start on how awesome foa was,
ONE ENGLISH COMMENTARY DOWN. 1139 words is pathetic, but whatever. :D three more to go -.-"

but,FOA (:
how can i put this all into words, without diminishing the actual feeling, that great, indescribable feeling that i felt when i was at home lying on my bed thinking damnit it's over. today i couldn't stop thinking about how awesome every single item was, couldn't stop watching the videos from my sister's cam, couldn't stop playing the crappy quality rehearsal videos/recordings from my phone, couldn't stop smiling every time i talked about someone or some item.
it may not have been the best we've ever played, but it just felt wonderful performing again :D i was so careful to treasure every minute of the day, and it is so amazing how that changes everything.

first there was the surprise minutes before the concert, when erik accidentally told me that brenda bought a ticket from him and told him not to tell me. then peiyi said alex bought a ticket from him and told him not to tell me too. (well okay, peiyi told me on thursday i think, but i didn't get it -.-) and i walked onstage and saw amanda with daryl and i was like, ohhh mann. i swear i've never been so ecstatic i couldn't stop smiling. WHEEEE I LOVE MY FRIENDS :D

then concert started and all the pieces just passed so quickly i swear. rehearsals seemed like eternity in comparison. & backstage was so fun, with edward and daniel and their dancing, if that's the term for it. ((: and erik with his whole serious face because he was 'mentally preparing himself' for his solo ended up looking like some petulant rich kid from a manga. must be the suit haha! ughh i really need to cultivate the habit of bringing a camera with me whereever i go and be shameless about taking videos and photos. and all the guys smartened up in their suits, the transformation is really quite amazing. my sister says i'm a damn lucky girl. in comparison to her 2 years in nj band. hmm.

and then there was intermission :D ie, when i saw brenda and alex and daryl and amanda and munching <333 but i swear, i am going to grow super fat from everything. but nvm they are awesome. the flowers were gorgeous, the jar of the natural confectionary co. sweets from brenda was absolutely heartwarming, and the godiva chocolates with the rose from daryl was super sweet! albeit definitely fat-inducing. but the fact that they came, and the whole surprise they pulled off just made me dammnn happy.

then all the small groups came up and did their thing, they were all fantastic in their own ways. standing at the back with erik and eugenia and watching all of them made me feel so proud to know them (: if you were one of those performing, trust me, you were awesome. joshua mark and alvin were stunning, every single person in the cpa was awed i swear. mark and alvin had great stage presence too, and joshua uh had everyone distracted by how amazing his shredding was, so i dont think his relative lack of body movement or facial expression was noticed. haha but yyz was a lot less stone, and during cliffs of dover erik was like 'okay, he's back to stoning'. haha. edward kevin and zhanfeng were really entertaining, everyone loved them, esp all the sound effects they were hilarious. they brought the sounds you can make with the guitar to a new level. daniel and peiyi with daughters were fantastic and i think everyone is in love with daniel's voice now. and yes, my mom is crazy about the song now. if my parents loved the item, it's gotta have been really good :D then andre and ian with bright lights got my sister crazy over the song. -.- and finally eugene, with what a wonderful world and blue moon, was wonderful. his tone was really nice for what a wonderful world, when he played it it was like, awwww. then blue moon had just the right feel, had me bobbing my head and now it is still stuck in my head. ahh well.

wave and csardas were pretty good too, considering that my sister thought csardas was good even though tanya and i could barely keep up for the first few runs. beatles and el bimbo were just so much fun, it was the perfect way to end the concert. (:

after the concert, got all the amazing flowers (if celery and carrots can be included). a huge bouquet from tim that probably cost a bomb but is positively lovely, another from mari that is damn pretty but i have no idea what it's called. but it is damn pretty. mr gaspar and mr lim were so jealous haha. then of course, how could i miss out, the celery and bag of carrots for good eyesight from joelynn. sigh, she is special in that way. :D









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how could i forget to say this. THANK YOU to all those who came down to support me (: thanks brenda amanda munching alex daryl for the surprise. i can't stop smiling every time i think of what y'all did. thanks mari for the beautiful flowers, and for coming down (: it means a lot to me that you came down. (: thank you tim for the flowers, and the bag; it was very thoughtful of you :D and not forgetting gareth, jonas, j lee, and wesley - thanks for the encouraging smses! and clement for the wall post (:

and so that was the end of foa. lots of wonderful memories, hope i'll never forget them. cheers to another awesome year in GO :D and GWH in SYF! :DD
okay japan trip come quick quick.

meh. i don't want to start on my english commentary.
ZZZ.
but i took chicken essence with ginseng so am very alive now.
ROARRR.
ROARRRR.
FOA IS IN LESS THAN 23 HOURS TIME. very happy/sad.
i think more sad, cos my mom doesn't allow me to go for supper with yr fives.
): ): ):
seriously, how many times in your life do you get to do this.
):

wl i'm not dating anyone, luh.

seriously. -.-

gossip and speculations are absolutely pointless; if you're wondering just ask me and i'll give you the truth straight in the face. no need for the smartass remarks and know-it-all eyebrows. if i had a boyfriend, i would uh i don't know, put it on facebook or something. but seriously, don't be lame lah. i'm attached to my books already <33.

on another note, my entire body is aching like hell. my abs are so painful i can't stretch, my arms are painful if i press the flexors muscles or whatever they're called, and my thigh muscles are recovering from all that volleying and lunging on sunday but still a bit :/ and now my fingers are sore too. roarrr.

and i couldn't play csardas today =.= UGHHH.

pre-concert post-concert.
sigh the feeling's always the same.
that feeling of pure joy when we sound pretty good first as a section then as an ensemble/orchestra. and being part of that music, the feeling is happy happy happy.
and then there's apprehension, mixed with excitement, and just all your days are centred on concert day. anticipation is all there is it's just non-stop looking forward. will we sound good, better, will we get nervous and screw up, it's like nothing matters except the concert.
and then there's the knowledge that it's gonna feel strange with nothing to look forward to all of a sudden, once it's over. and i know i'm gonna start missing all the practices even though it created loads of homework for me with all the missed classes and long hours ):
sigh concerts play with my feelings ):
sighh. sometimes it would be nice if time didn't pass so fast.
4 days. wahhhh.
my fingers are all calloused after csardas. but it feels good being able to play it with the rest of the altos, like FINALLY we're in time.
and the year sixes are gonna be moving on. and we're gonna be year six really soon. then it'll be our turn. ): damn time passes too fast.
sighhhh.
pleaseee i hope my mom lets me go out with the yr fives after foa that would be awesome. at least i won't be left hanging there.

i want a pet dino. ):

I AM DAMN TIRED I NEED TO KEEP AWAKE.
without coffee.
how to hype myself up?
i rant.
forgive me for rambling, then.
i have my bio design prac to do and then a hell lot of stuff to touch up on for ee.
guitar practices have killed my ability to do work at night i cannot concentrate i am damnnnn tired.
my eyes are dry and i really want to eat something.
where is your willpower debbie goh.
STAY AWAKE.

RAFFLES TOP SCHOLAR AWARD <33333!
omg omg omg i actually got it WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
i swear i could die of happiness. :D :D
it's just that i'm damn tired today so i'll celebrate another day, like, when guitar foa's over (: hahah concert's coming up so exciting! :D yay i really hope it goes well. :DDDDD but ughh costume is awful we look like stagehands. black top, black pants, black shoes. how more imaginative could we get with colours. or rather, the lack of it.
OMG I'M A RAFFLES TOP SCHOLAR. wahhhhhhh. that is so cool. wheeeeeee.
and the way my mom broke the news was super funny.
"Congratulations darling! You're awarded raffles top scholar 2007! Well done! So proud of you!!! To God be the glory!"
omgosh hahah so cute, so much for being pro-raffles she is totally ac-fied i swear.
traaaadeeedaaa. but i can't be bothered to go for speech day to collect it. sitting through last year's one was bad enough. plus i'm gonna have to go back in the bomber jacket (cue for jawdrop.) so no way i'm gonna be caught dead in that by my juniors. D;
unless zes's going. but crap i'll never know by the date i need to rsvp! that girl is in cambridge nowww. -.- awesome. but nahhh. not like the food's good. (:
HAPPPYYYY. :D