please don't let me screw up chem the way i screwed up bio!
how could i have not finished the paper.
when i knew everything. everysinglebloodything.
when everything i mugged came out.
AHHHHH. ahhhhh. AHHHH. AHHHH. AHHHHHHH.
this is how exams suck the joy out of studying. they make it seem as though studying so hard isnt worth it because the limiting factor is the ability of the hand to write quickly and legibly and not the tons and tons of awesome stuff you mugged but all the teacher sees is whatever you managed to write down. and bio is still schtuck in my head. apparently my brain cells weren't lysed, as previously speculated.
anyway was clearing my inbox when i came across this prayer request that i sent to my ydg group when i first came to ib, and it made me ashamed because on hindsight i had so many opportunities to do just that, but i didn't, and here i am wondering how looking for a cell group has become one of my last priorities. it just baffles me how i can see the importance of something so clearly and yet neglect it so completely and something like 2 months has just gone by and i haven't done anything since i left ykg.

"..pray that I will continue to always find time to spend time alone with God admist my hectic schedule, and pray that I will not lose sight of my ultimate purpose of studying hard, that is, to glorify Him in the process as others see His strength carrying me through, and to ultimately yield my knowledge and gifts for His use, to serve others and bring non-Christian friends to Christ. Also pray that I will be able to grow spiritually so that I can guide other younger Christians in church to grow in the way of the Lord."

really, what happened. and there's just so much to be done, but right now i'm just so damn lazy to try.