No. 08/030506

sometimes i just get so freaking pissed with the way i manage to control myself. yeah today started out bad. let a bit of steam out and gave zes the attitude by refusing to leave the damned tissue on my table. I'M SORRY, ZESLENE. I PROMISE I WON'T DO IT AGAIN. there. maybe it was just cos of that little thing waiting outside our class at the freaking early time of 7.00am.

but i've gotta admit these few days have really been a strain. i've been so GAHH temperamental but it's like, i've got no right to be. i mean, i've been wanting so hard to just GET ANGRY. you know like WOAH! angry. and i've come so close to that so close but i just have to see them all the time and i'm like. ugh. and there's this jealousy but i'm not entitled to it; it's not mine to claim and i could never do things like that; that'll be too selfish that i'll hate myself for doing it. yet i'm hating myself now for not doing it and that's what's been getting me so damn bad these few days.

went to hairy faced dick's office after school today. ugh. and what does he say? 'well, good luck with your research and see you next august!' friend: it's due july 9th, according to marissa (lee). wth.

2.4 tmr. i'm dreading it, but not for that reason. i'm dreading tmr cause i'm just hoping and praying that everything's gonna go right if i just PRAY. You'll watch over us, won't You?

today, my love goes out to dora and marissa.

'God bless all those

That I love;

God bless all those

that love me;

God bless all those

That love those that I love;

and all those that

love those that love me.'